BE PATIENT PLS!!!

Honestly say,when i read your message,the first phase did bristled my rage,what you mean that is i am the one who purposely finding an excuse to reject it,right?

Well,i've been ever situated in this position and definitely i know that feeling when someone is turning down it,it did discouraged me as well,but what i want to say is,don't be so 'realistic' ok?Please show your fully care to someone you truly care for but not just in focusing achieving a certain motive only,it will easily make people disgust!!

I wonder don't you know that nurturing someone or something,the main element must be PATIENT!You don't know that??and caring should be the fully care but not just in certain and only part!C'mon,ain't you know that you have set up my bristle today!!! :\

METOO ^^

Love METOO much!^^ found them that day i went Jusco shopping,they get attracted me the time i stepped in,they are so cUteeee!!!love love love...:P

Birthday celebration

                   

                     

I was celebrated birthday with L yesterday,such a great moment with you,heee:P

We went to sing k,oppss!!should be you are the one who sing yet i am the one who eat,kekeke..lol I seem have ate alot in the buffet there,and drank two glasses cold drink,woow,what i can say is the drinks are super nice!ice blended with cereal oat plus cornflakes and some almond,tasted good!=) oh ya,we get a bottle of sparkling juice also as we won in playing the dice,heeee..^^well,you are so pandai huh,i mean in throwing the dice,kekkee..thanks to the 'mummy' also,lol=)

Afterward,the white wine,yeah white wine,thanks fot bought it,because it is nice nice nice nice!!i get started to fall in love with white wine le!:P

 

friday night

               I should be on the bus now in this time..Originally i will go for an interview at KL tomorrow,i suppose to go by tonight,but suddenly got some changed so it has been postponed to next sat,and i got to change my bus ticket to next sat also.

After i sms to mum to inform her about the postponed,mum let me know that sophia is so disappointed after knew that i will not coming tonight,i felt heart pain for her disappointment..;( sorry,my dearest niece..

Doing nothing tonight,so go to shopping with my dad,guess what??haa,i bought two cute cactus back!!I found them cute,so just bought it back and think of to present it to someone,heeee...i hope u will like it as i love them so much,they are vey CUTE!!!:p (have bought a pack of glico chocolate rolls back also to try,but its taste not as good as what i think at first:x)

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Been crying much just now,got too many unsmooth and unsettled thing happened in my life,i am stucking and can't do anything.Don't know where i can share out my feeling,so have wrote a lot in my diary,at least in this way i can be better a bit...

Sweet and wonderful day

Met an accident today!!

This morning car get bang down while i am going to school.I paid RM 100 to that uncle as it was my fault i think..But what i most concerning is my bro's car as it spoiled quite terribly=x

Mood get influced by it throughout the whole morning,worry will get scolded and the repairment fee..Although i keep telling myself i need to give thanks in all circumstances yet the bad feeling still 'sticking' with me and make my mind run whirl.

But after my mum and bro get to know about it,praise God to let me see through this event about how deeper love they have to me!Especially my bro,he never blamed me for crashed badly his car instead concern my condition whether i am fine or not.I am really touched by it...=..

Thanks to L who cares me much also to come down here along the way after get knew i got an car accident.Your action make me feel so warm and sweet,sure i am very touched by you also..I know how much your heart toward me,thanks so much..^^

God is so wonderful!Through an event to reveal people's caring and love toward me,let me know that i am so precious and important!I should love myself much and cherish the people around me,you all always are so precious to me also!

p/s: so silly girl shed tears secretly a few times after car get bang down:xlol 

Gifted Hand

Yesterday night went to the prayer meeting and we watched a movie which named 'Gifted Hand'.This movie is based on the true story,and it did convey a important and helpful message to me.Thanks god for spoke out to me!

These few days i felt like keep looking down myself,low self-esteem always.I looked myself imperfect in every areas from inward to outward,everything are so worst in me,hate myself much!gosh...

Hence god let me to have chance to catch up with this movie...Curson who is a boy who get the lowest mark everytime in his exam in class and everyone love to tease him.It caused him always think that he is a dumb boy.Nevertheless,his mother is a great monther who always encourage him and give him confidence.Sooner and sooner,under his mother encouragement and helping,his became the top student in his school,and after that he graduated from Yale University as well.Finally he became a very famous nuerosurgeon. 

Of course in the proccess of his life,he went through many low self-esteem period,but one thing is he always depend on God and pray to God everyday,his mother play a very important role in this also in encouragement.Through here i get know a point is no matter how worst we think we are,once we stand in and hold tightly the promises of God,definitely we can achieved the thing that look like impossible for us to accomplish!God will let you be the one who are special enough!!

I like the word which the mother told to Dr Carson always,"we gotta see beyond what we can't see".

Everyone of us is so precious and capable in God's eyes,hence show your confident as WE CAN DO IT!!! Amen!

the night when you've back..

Tonight is Deepavali night,mum has come bk as well..Felt happy and welcomed much the coming back of my mum,but once she stepped in the house,her nagging would never stop...

She began to nag about my job,then his job and bla bla bla... ...i totally can't tolerant with all these!

everytime when she nagging about me,a lot of worries,unpeace,furstrations will raise up in me,it makes me down much afterward,became low self-esteem and hate much myself,of course it is including every decisions that i had made.Frankly say,i don't like when i become like this,that's y indirectly i don't love my mum nagging to me.

I dare to say every human got their own goal and purpose in their life,for mum and bro,maybe their goal is to aim many money then to get the best lives they ought to have.But for me,i only hope i could be happy and enjoy my live as long as everything is just enough for me.Of course,who don't love money??i do also,but what's point to keep pursuing it like a 'money slave'?

Addition for it,why some people always keeping their target for so high,later on only wear out themselve just for achieving it?Where is your joy in life then?Oh..don't try to tell me the joy of your life is when you can get or enjoying with the best material things which is bought by your hardly earning money!

As i say,every people got their own purpose in life,so don't try to influence others with your own opinion,k?Let people choose for what they want!

Be satisfy with everything and find your purpose of life in God rather than in material things in the world...

God, i want my life be fruitful in your kingdom yet not in this world...amen!

Wed night

Have turned down to join cg tonight..i don't want to go just because this is what i compulsory to do it,it makes me feel like i am bond by this,like forcing am to do something that i don't feel like to do.

Luckily,thanks for your coming tonight and have a Japanese set dinner with me,it brighten me up a lot indeed,thanks o..=)Although the set is not nice but the sushi make me feel good,because i like it!Have expecting to eat sushi for few weeks already,somehow tonight i got chance to have it,mood has became pretty much good as well,lol.

Thanks to L ya,thanks for everything that you have done on me...^_^

FInally..

Finally i have finished my SMM form key in...it is such a torturing for us to do it,i dare to say i am so dizzy and feel like to vomit while doing this,so can you imaging how suffer i am??

Most of the teacher told me we need at least two days time to finish all these key in work,it make me  so frustrated as the time is so limited,one day for each of the teacher..how to settle this huh??But thanks God for the miracle happened today for i just spent for four hours plus to finish all,praise God!=)God you are really great for listened my prayer!!!^^

But SMM is really 'disgusting' stuff,i swear i don't want to touch it anymore...

p/s:my eyebag problem is getting serious:X

FUN pls!

recently i really bored with my live...

Today went school in the morning n frustrated with a load of works that i got to finish,hate with those people who think that all of us are SUPERteacher,capable in doing everything..it is really tiring!!

kinda of to give up in teaching life instead of factory work,wish to out to have a breath and experiencing fruitfully of my life,wish to walk to outside world to have my fullest live,maximum using what i have in me.sometimes i keep thinking of myself,it is such a wasting for my current days without doing any greatly things while i still young n capable,but i just live it without any purposes or goals..

Besides of all these,i want to enjoy my live joyfully and happily!!that's y how much i wish i can have more and more trip!i want travel to every places that i never been before,i want eat around the stuff that i never try before!but could i??am i got this chance huh? All my mind now is i want to have FUN FUN FUN FUN!!! :p