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心情有点烦乱，有谁能否告诉我为何呢？

没任何想做的事，除了工作我会全力以赴，其他何事，我感力不从心，为何呢？

心里闷闷地。。。一时即起好想上网订张机票到国外旅游，有伴没伴也好，不管了，就想这样潇洒走一回！

看似我很强悍，但其实是被迫把自己塑造成如此。自小除了我妈，没人能让我依靠，但妈能力有限，所以许多事物还是得自己扛起，一旦我没法实践，身边人就会给予不起眼的眼神。长大了，更不用多说。

矛盾的是，有时的我好爱自己变得强悍些，有时却是那么讨厌自己那小小的强悍。

BACK~ loves ^_^

Long din come back,heeee...it is time for me to back!!got a tones of photos want to update here!=D

I am happy with my life indeed^^(always satisfied with what we have,then u will be happy all the times!)twink***>p<

with bro n 2nd in law having lunch in KSL shopping mall
going KSL shopping~~



on the way to church,hair so messy=P
i look damn scared when i carry this chincilla


with sis in law in KL, sunway pyramid..love to be with this 2 kids always^^

having lunch again in taiwan restaurant which located inside the sunway pyramid
thanks my dear for the iphone 4,althu now it is not beside with me...

CNY steamboat time!
R we look match with the spec??=D

back time

I am coming back!

But, now i got to go back again...Thought i can stay at hometown after i resigned,somehow life is unpredestined, it is not under my control.

Previous job make me lead a very stress and unhappy working life, i am eagerly wanna run off that kind of life on that moment. Now i did it, i back to the life i wish to have when i still working,but i start to get bored with it. Thus, while i standing outside and watching up the sky,i start to refresh back my busy and pressure working life,suddenly i feel so relax and know how to cherish my current days, i take it as a holiday for me, not every time i will have this kind of privilege one,haa..

Well,maybe soon i will back to kl to help out bro for his works,again, i got back to the working days, it is good but i realised i am hard to leave here...I hope can settle down also instead of keep moving around.

There is too much to voice up here since i have long time din update and get chance to 'speak out'.Well,where should i start...

Today have a great time with my senior for lunch,she shared a lot her past experience to me,maybe she heard also i gotta to leave.By the way,today only i know what i have been go through actually just a very small case for her as she really been through a hardship period,how colleague and boss treated her,but she strive hard to prove she has the ability to perform perfectly,now she did and boss treat her in another round,so realistic in working society!

It stood me for a while and interupted my decision,thus i still insisting on as i know this is not the job i want,it deprived my joy and my spirit in me..Now,maybe i should trying to apply the GSTT here rather than waiting back hometown and can't get the job there..I really urgent to have money due to my saving plan payable amount still lack for more,somehow next month i need to pay off already...awww,first time feel i am so poor in financial=(

In addition,today just realised i lost my VERYIMPORTANT document--Indentity Card!!and it lost since last friday i think,but hw come i din noticed earlier,damn!

Anyway,tomorrow still got a lot thing to do in office,everyday must have something to do and pending,hate it!Ahhhhhhhhhhh.........

I start to feel like i just like a robot or 'plastic woman',no much feeling in my life,just stress and work things...no other...that is terrible...pity a lot of people have became like this already...speechless

stop!

I think i already reached the bottom of my limit to 'tahan'...So miserable for me now,one thing can make me happy in my life is quit from my current job!It is really been stressed for me in this work field,no matter how strong and eagerness for me to learn the new thing here but it all can't overcoming my limitation to hanging on anymore,i have make up my mind,i want to resign...i want to free myself,learning is good but seem i can't live my life with happiness then what the point for me to insist on?In addition,the more i stay here the more i feel i myself so unvaluable and more low self esteem,all the confident have gone...is this all i want from the purpose at first i came here?NO!
So contradict,before when be teacher i went to go crazy for unfruitful life there,but now that kind of life make me miss much and envy much!no stress and can go have fun anytime!no need to worry my expenses as well...
Wonder whether my family will support my decision?But i really want to resign...
Life is so shorter,how come i wanna torturing and forcing myself live under such life which i don't like it!Why?Thought learning is good but why under this kind of environment?yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy???

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Staying in other's house is very 'xin ku',if let me to choose i rather to stay wf my fren instead of with my family members.
Maybe my lifestyle is different with you caused you unhappy,but if i got the choice i will not come to here,honestly to say..one thing is i really troubled you all already,sorry about it..
Everything stress me up,from staying place,home people,working place,colleagues,boss,figure,custormer...everything coming together,how to continue on the life?